The One That I Thought Was True
I believed you from the very first day. The day that changed my life and showed me what I thought love should feel like. You see the day when you told me that you had never met a girl as beautiful as me. Yes I believed you, which was probably why I didn't hesitate to give you my number. And this is on the fist day of meeting you. When you told me you just wanted to be my friend. I believed you. I believed every single word of yours. Just that small conversation alone was enough for me to know that you were true.
I believed you told me things, which you'd never told any one else. We spent many days together and nights on the phone discussing so many things. Like the one time you told me about your goals and ambitions. Never did I believe in a person as much as I did with you. Now the friendship became much deeper and I trusted you with every aspect of my life. When you met my family and promised my Father that you'll take very good care of me. Oh how I believed you. Believed your kind words, and the truths of how I made you feel on a daily basis.
As time passed I believed you more and more, hardly ever doubting you or your words. We became close, sort of like the best friend I never had but secretly always wanted. About 10 months into whatever you'd want to call this relationship, I'm carrying your child. Nothing made me more happy than knowing I would be the mother of your first born, but unfortunately that moment did not last very long as you insisted that now was not the time to have a child. I believed every word you used to help convince me into having a termination as that was the logical thing to do at the time. It was a sad time but we got through it and I became more and more happy just being with you.
So now I'm reliving all those amazing moments with you as I sit here and watch you say your vows to another woman. It hurts but the crazy thing is, with every vow you take, I'm believing each word. The way your looking at her, and the way in which your expressing your love for this woman. Its all so believable yet difficult as I thought one day this would be us.
I'm now realising that everything you said to me was a lie, none of it was true, and I feel a fool for ever believing a single thing you said to be. It was just a month ago that I was in your arms and you told me you loved me, and guess what I believed you. The plan was to put a stop to this sham of a wedding, but truth is I just can't bring myself to do it because it seems like you love this woman more than you ever seemed to love me. But how and when did you find the time when you and I were together all the time. Rather than fill up with hurt and anger I'm strangely quite happy for you.
As you say I do, and look onto the congregation, our eyes seem to meet. And its as if you never even knew me. You didn't look surprised nor concerned to see me here. Holding back the tears I get up and gracefully walk out of the church and ask myself 'Can I Ever Believer Another Man Again?'........Well can I?
I believed you told me things, which you'd never told any one else. We spent many days together and nights on the phone discussing so many things. Like the one time you told me about your goals and ambitions. Never did I believe in a person as much as I did with you. Now the friendship became much deeper and I trusted you with every aspect of my life. When you met my family and promised my Father that you'll take very good care of me. Oh how I believed you. Believed your kind words, and the truths of how I made you feel on a daily basis.
As time passed I believed you more and more, hardly ever doubting you or your words. We became close, sort of like the best friend I never had but secretly always wanted. About 10 months into whatever you'd want to call this relationship, I'm carrying your child. Nothing made me more happy than knowing I would be the mother of your first born, but unfortunately that moment did not last very long as you insisted that now was not the time to have a child. I believed every word you used to help convince me into having a termination as that was the logical thing to do at the time. It was a sad time but we got through it and I became more and more happy just being with you.
So now I'm reliving all those amazing moments with you as I sit here and watch you say your vows to another woman. It hurts but the crazy thing is, with every vow you take, I'm believing each word. The way your looking at her, and the way in which your expressing your love for this woman. Its all so believable yet difficult as I thought one day this would be us.
I'm now realising that everything you said to me was a lie, none of it was true, and I feel a fool for ever believing a single thing you said to be. It was just a month ago that I was in your arms and you told me you loved me, and guess what I believed you. The plan was to put a stop to this sham of a wedding, but truth is I just can't bring myself to do it because it seems like you love this woman more than you ever seemed to love me. But how and when did you find the time when you and I were together all the time. Rather than fill up with hurt and anger I'm strangely quite happy for you.
As you say I do, and look onto the congregation, our eyes seem to meet. And its as if you never even knew me. You didn't look surprised nor concerned to see me here. Holding back the tears I get up and gracefully walk out of the church and ask myself 'Can I Ever Believer Another Man Again?'........Well can I?
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