Do i look fat in this......
This time last year I was preparing for my Christmas trip to Nigeria. I had spent like a good 6 - 9 months of gym classes as well as drinking Young Cho tea from Hollands and Barrett (this made me pee and shit a lot) all because I knew I'd come back from that trip with extra Christmas weight which of course I did (sigh) and I actually wanted to look like one fine London babe and catch a rich Nigerian man (joke LOL). I was in such good shape back then and for once I could see the results for myself but somehow within this year I've proper let myself go. To be fair this year has been a little stressful what with my dissertation to do as well as working part time while studying, I just didn't have as much time to take care of my body. And I was snacking a lot as well as excessive alcohol intake due to depression (that's a story for another day, I'm all good now *wink*)
These days I come out the shower, look in the mirror and I HATE what I see. To be honest some parts of my body have received the "good" weight like my boobs and my bum which is a plus as I was lacking in that department. But I've now got BACK FAT!!!!!! No word of a lie back fat is starting to form and show through my fitted tops. I can no longer wear body con dresses as my belly draws too much attention :-( Its all so sad as I don't even feel comfortable getting naked around others (not that I do).
It wasn't until I was showing someone the before and after of myself from this time last year till now, was when for the first time it proper hit me how much my body has truly changed and not in a good way. It was staring right in front of me. The same dress but different body shape. It made me sad. It also showed me how much I'm no longer taking care of my body and what I eat. I'd hope for my partner to be in such good shape but how do I expect to get that if I'm looking the way I look now. I'd don't feel sexy at all, so how must others see me.
Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with having a bit of phat, but it must be in the right place. My boobs and bum I'm pretty content with, however I'm now on a mission to get rid of the tummy and back fat and just tone up. My face could also do with a little shredding, especially these fat cheeks of mine. I just feel horrible that I now try to find ways to conceal the worst areas of my body like taking selfies or if I should take a full body pic I now must position and angle myself in a way in which I don't look awful.
So with this being said I've actually started this mission by firstly NOT snacking at work (baby steps). I started on Monday 2nd Dec and so far no sweets, chocolates or biscuits have entered my mouth. I have less than a week left till I travel so I will start back gym when I arrive on 21st December. I'll be watching what I eat and try to include more vegetables with my meal as well as making homemade smoothies which I'll take to work as part of my five a day, increase my water intake and drink green tea. I'll also try to jog more often like I used to when I get back (i used to enjoy this but no one to do this with anymore). I'd like to say I will cut out rice but this will be difficult so lets just say I'll try. I've not given myself a time frame, However I shall take a picture on February 14th 2014 to see if there's been any progress/changes (why this date I'm not sure but if I'm alone V-day at least I'll be looking good)
Wish me luck ;-)
These days I come out the shower, look in the mirror and I HATE what I see. To be honest some parts of my body have received the "good" weight like my boobs and my bum which is a plus as I was lacking in that department. But I've now got BACK FAT!!!!!! No word of a lie back fat is starting to form and show through my fitted tops. I can no longer wear body con dresses as my belly draws too much attention :-( Its all so sad as I don't even feel comfortable getting naked around others (not that I do).
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| Dec 2012 - Dec 2013 |
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| Dec 2012 - Dec 2013 |
Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with having a bit of phat, but it must be in the right place. My boobs and bum I'm pretty content with, however I'm now on a mission to get rid of the tummy and back fat and just tone up. My face could also do with a little shredding, especially these fat cheeks of mine. I just feel horrible that I now try to find ways to conceal the worst areas of my body like taking selfies or if I should take a full body pic I now must position and angle myself in a way in which I don't look awful.
So with this being said I've actually started this mission by firstly NOT snacking at work (baby steps). I started on Monday 2nd Dec and so far no sweets, chocolates or biscuits have entered my mouth. I have less than a week left till I travel so I will start back gym when I arrive on 21st December. I'll be watching what I eat and try to include more vegetables with my meal as well as making homemade smoothies which I'll take to work as part of my five a day, increase my water intake and drink green tea. I'll also try to jog more often like I used to when I get back (i used to enjoy this but no one to do this with anymore). I'd like to say I will cut out rice but this will be difficult so lets just say I'll try. I've not given myself a time frame, However I shall take a picture on February 14th 2014 to see if there's been any progress/changes (why this date I'm not sure but if I'm alone V-day at least I'll be looking good)
Wish me luck ;-)
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