Dear Future Self

This may come as a surprise and I’m not writing you to convince you of what you don’t already know, i’m just reminding you of what you vowed yourself the start of June 2018.

You vowed to love and enjoy your life to the fullest and appreciate the people that surround you on a day to day. Always embrace the things you don’t understand as it’s all a part of your learning experience in life. Just because certain things have not gone your way, it’s never an excuse to give up or doubt yourself. You’ve left your family home, fought with friends then made up again, found love and lost it, changed jobs and travelled all in the space of a year. It’s been fun, emotional and quite scary at times but don’t forget who you are. Hold on to the memories but look forward to creating new ones.

It’s ok to cry sometimes, or be angry, or feel hurt. Just don’t let those feelings consume your day to day. Have a moment, then remember how fu*king wavy you are. You’ve struggled at finding your self worth and value in some people’s lives for a while now, but Becky you are amazing and everyone in your life is blessed to have you (yes I said it). Check up on your friends and family and tell them you love them from time to time. Stay close to your siblings because they truly have your back and don't be afraid to share things with your parents.

I hope you’ve come to understand that every ones journey is different and its not a race. Everything you hope and pray for in life will come when its time for you to receive them. Remain loyal to those that are loyal to you because as you know sometimes people can take you for granted and do things in the dark thinking it won’t come to light. It will hurt yes, but it’s temporary and you soon forget about it. Just keep preparing yourself for new adventures with new people or even with the people currently in your life.

Above all keep finding joy in the little things, like the time you saw your favourite juice in Spain or when boss man at Morley's gives you an extra chicken wing. I also hope you’ve been able to shed some of that love weight cos I know the struggle was real.

To friends lost, I hope we've been able to meet again. To friends gained, I hope you know how important you are to me. To old colleagues, I hope we've continued to stay in touch. To my future kids, I can't wait to meet you if your not already here yet. And to my future husband, I hope I'm doing a kick ass job at being your wife and life time partner.

I hope when you read this in the next few months, or years from now, that you are smiling :-)

Stay queening!